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You know that feeling when you look in the mirror and wonder how did it all come to this? The build up can be stealth and silent. We tend to react to those hurdles as they present themselves.

One minute your happily going about your day, the children are dropped off, you’ve got stuff in the fridge sorted for dinner, traffic is good and work went okay. Then you get the phone call, someone you love has fallen ill, there’s no other support around apart from you. In that moment do you feel stretched and heavy, or expanded and light that you’ve got this.

Now imagine that this is happening on a weekly basis, and over months and years. Everything begins to feel squeezed, wedged in amongst all the other life noise, commitments and responsibility.

There’s the emotional worry, the fear of loss, the coping strategies that are now starting to fail and weaken just when you need them.

You feel tired all the time. Decision making becomes blurred. Fatigue becomes a reality ,and it gets harder to concentrate on what is priority and important. The meals become quick, fast food options as there is no energy or bandwith to cook up from scratch. You feel more irrratble at the slightest push of pressure. Snapping more, feeling constantly drained and exhausted.

Not long ago you were happy singing along to the radio in the car, a normal light routine day. You felt secure. But things change. Life gives you bumps in the road. You become a shadow, and question will there ever be light again, windows rolled down, warm sun on your face. In a nutshell. Yes the light does return.

The way to support yourself through these chapters, times, whether brief or prolonged is understanding when you can push and when you have to yield and withdraw inwards.

Would you run your car on empty? No. You fill it up with fuel, but you also check the oil levels, water and tyre pressure and a few other things to ensure it performs and gets you where you need to be.

This is how you need to shift into seeing yourself, so that you can get through these periods of shadow and change.

It can be hard, but sometimes those conversations have to be had to create that scaffolding around you.

This is where supported Reiki sessions can help. They offer you a monthly space that opens you up to receieving universal light energy. Ensuring your own life force can be maintained. It allows you to drop your shoulders, sigh out the tension you carry. To breathe without distraction and to help your nervous system stabilise and regulate. Giving your emotional weight over to the universe to carry for a while.

If it helps join my local community cafe group that meets up with like minded women going through all kinds of caring fatigue, grief, and change. Just sitting silently can be enough, knowing that there is care and understanding at the heart of these meetings. Sharing the load, the problems, the diffciulties, but also being guided by what others found useful such as resources and pathways. From vitiman supplements, routines, organisations , self care etc.

You are not navigating this alone.